Lose For Good Campaign

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Weight Watchers is donating $1 ($25,000 max) to Share Our Strength and Action Against Hunger for every mention of the Lose for Good Campaign on blogs, facebook, Twitter, and MySpace.

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What's your goal for the duration of the Lose For Good Campaign? I hope to lose an average of 1 pound per week and earn 5o AP by October 17th.

5 Pounds to GO!!

Tonight was my first weigh-in in two weeks due to Labor Day and I was pleasantly surprised to learn that I've lost 3.2 pounds! I currently weigh 140.2 pounds. Today I also raised my goal weight because I don't want to lose much more weight.

Is anyone else excited for The Biggest Loser to start again tomorrow night?!!

Tomorrow I have a manager's meeting I have to go to for an hour. I've decided to bike to and from.

My apologies for the truncated post, but I have some things to attend to.

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Things have been better and my mood has improved somewhat. I took the advice of one of my new blog buddies and increased my exercise. To get motivated I joined a challenge on Weight Watchers eTools to earn 100 AP's by Halloween. This week I earned 9 AP's in 4 days, but I definitely paid for it. Only a month ago I was a 34DD and now I am a 36B/34C (*sigh*). They always say that your breasts are the first thing to go when you're losing weight, so I was convinced after losing 60 pounds that I was going to be able to keep them. I was rather attached to that fatty tissue...

Tomorrow is my weigh-in. Hopefully I've lost a couple of pounds. This will be my first loss in 3 weeks. I didn't have a Weight Watchers meeting last week and I missed it :(. I look forward to going every week and socializing with my friends there. These days I get odd looks from newer members, but I still know that I belong; we are all there for the same reason. The weight is falling off slower and I need all the support available, so that I can stay focused and push through. I can't wait to hit goal and go through maintenance, so that as a lifetime member I won't have to pay $40/month anymore. I am thinking of raising my goal weight to 135 because people are wondering how much more weight I can afford to lose. I'm on the fence. When I set out, I thought a size 4 would be a good goal, but now it's not about the size. I'm a 6 (down from a size 18 at my largest) and am fairly comfortable with that.

Sometimes I do have trouble seeing the "new me". I can see it in my face when looking in the mirror, but when looking at my body alone, it still looks the same to me for the most part. There are parts that still look big, like my legs. Is this evidence of distorted body image or is this normal?

In other news:

I am currently trying to scrounge together some money to take the GRE because I have decided to bite the bullet and take on extra education debt and get a master's degree at the local state university.

A Little Down

I have been feeling off lately and it's showing on the scale. Last week I gained 1/2 of a pound. I was very active the week before (for me). I had exercised for 20 minutes, 3 different times. Last week that number fell to 2 times and this week I have yet to break a sweat. I think about exercising, but I don't.

It's hard to describe how I feel. I just want to sleep all the time, but of course I cant. It's hard to find joy in the every day. I hate my job and the fact that 47% of my income goes to student loans. I'm in a hole and it feels like I'm too deep to dig myself out.

Even though I don't have a bed and can't afford groceries, some would say at least I have my health. Right now that's just not enough.

I need something good to happen. I really, really need it. Unfortunately, everything good that's happened I've had to work very hard for, so I'm hoping something good will happen that doesn't take any effort from me because I'm fed up with treading water.

I almost prayed today