Yatta!

Yesterday was my weekly weigh-in and I lost 2.2 pounds! I can't believe it... all my worry was for nothing. 

For two days last week I was a bottomless pit! In those two days I must have consumed all of my flex points (that I normally don't even use). I can't tell you whether I did or not because I stopped tracking after I hit my daily target. Paired with lack of exercise, I was sure that was going to be a recipe for weight gain. For the rest of the week I didn't dare to get on the scale at home. 

But no, I hit my 20%! I am so glad that I correctly listened to my body when it was asking for more fuel. I knew it wasn't emotional or boredom hunger! 

Last night I celebrated by going to a local Thai restaurant where I ordered the Kee Maow (5 points/cup) and Dim Sum (2pts/piece) and a glass of Cabernet Sauvignon. I was very busy earlier in the day so I had a bunch of points left. I grabbed a snack before I left the house, so that I wouldn't lick my plate clean and had a great celebration dinner. I used a couple of flex points because that's what they are for (I need to keep telling myself this so I won't be too restrictive). This time I tracked the flex points I used. I think before I was almost ashamed to use them, but now I know it's necessary sometimes. 

After dinner, I ended up going for a very nice 2 mile walk/jog with my boyfriend to earn some exercise points, so I am feeling wonderful today!

1.8 pounds away from the 150's

12 years ago, the number 150 on the scale is what triggered a full-blown eating disorder, but today I would accept that number with open arms. I can't believe how far I've come. I feel amazing. I'm in better shape and have a leaner body than I've had in years. I actually don't think I've ever been this healthy! When I was much thinner, I had gotten there from long periods of starvation and purging. 

Goals

My next goal is to get into the 150's. After that, I will be celebrating the loss of 45 pounds at 159.2 and 50! at 154.2. Then, I will be looking forward to reaching the 25% (153.2 pounds) weight-loss mark. 

Been a while.

It's been quite a while since my last post. To tell the truth I've lost a bit of focus and I blame it on one thing, getting comfortable with my body. Of course, this isn't a horrible thing, but I am only halfway to my goal and my weight-loss is slowing down. This is the time that I should be extra focused and diligent about my intake and exercise goals, but so far the opposite is happening. This may sound horrible, but I really wish people would stop telling me how great/thin/et cetera I am looking. It's going straight to my head! Lol.

This week has been a bit rough, I've used most of my flex points when normally I use none to 5 of them. My weight seems to be holding steady and I fear I am going to pay at the scale for not earning any activity points. Today I am doing ok, but the two days before that I was feeling hungry all the time. It didn't seem like emotional hunger, so I figured I would give my body what it was asking for. Right now I am regretting it. As of now I am 0.6 pounds away from having lost 20% of my body weight and I don't think I am going to make it by Monday night. I'm trying to focus on the positive, but I'm a little disappointed in myself for my lack of focus and exercise this week.

On the up-side, I bought a pair of size 8 jeans, I am hoping to fit into them by the end of the summer if not sooner!

Beautiful Day

This morning I actually jumped out of bed. I woke up feeling excellent! Let's hope the rest of the day goes that well. I have had the last two days off and today I am closing up shop, so I don't need to be in until 3:30 ish. I wanted to write a quick post, but I have a bunch of stuff still left to do such as sun worshipping and yoga.

I have not started my contest subsmission yet. I've been spending the last couple of days re-organizing my life. I knew that things were hectic when I was with my ex and constantly travelling to see him, but my goodness! Finally, after two days things are clean and everything is in line, so that I can actually put new things on my to-do list.

My snacking goal is not going so well this week and my exercise is still average for me (1-2 days per week). Yesterday I indulged on two differen't WW treats for a total of 4 out of my 27 daily points. I am just trying to eat more responsibly and while the WW ice creams and candies are better than most calorie-wise, they are still not the best choice for the body. So...no more of those for the rest of the week.

I am worth it

On Monday I completed 16 weeks of being on the Weight Watchers program. I weighed in at 164.4 pounds. I was 0.2 pounds away from hitting the 40 lb mark and only 1 pound away from having lost TWENTY PERCENT of my body weight since starting WW. If we were to calculate using my peak weight from this last fall of 215, I have already lost 23% of my body weight.

The past few days have been a roller coaster for me, having gone through a break-up. Ending a relationship with someone is never easy and never feels good, especially if you have developed an attachment, but life goes on and mine will be great. Tonight I spoke to one of my dearest friends for quite a long time. He is me, only a few years older with a penis and all the accoutrement's. He was able to bring some clarity to my mind and shake me back to my center. So here I am... I am back and grounded as ever.

I deleted a couple of unescessary posts from the last few days that were filled with emotional turmoil. It's not that I am ashamed of it because everybody goes through stuff and responds differently, but my initial responses are always more exaggerated compared to how I feel when my mind has had a day or two to adapt to change. To those of you who may have read those, I am doing ok, and I regret that you saw that side of me because it's not an accurate depiction of me as a whole.

Goals for this next week:

exercise, exercise, exercise! Now that I am not getting any sex, I will have to kick up my activity level quite a bit. LOL. No, but really... No matter what happens in my life I need to keep routine and stay active. Exercise will be a great way to help kick the pain and stress of a break-up while keeping me on track with my health goals.

Hit the 40lb and 20% mark by Monday, May 1st. -No problem.

Start my essay submission for the Weight Watchers Inspiring Stories of the Year Contest!

Eat less snacks and empty calories.

Move on...because I'm worth it.

Monday Night Weigh-in

This week I lost 3.4 pounds. My current weight is 165.4 pounds and my total loss is 38.8 pounds.

New body...New apartment

Warning! I took this video from my BlackBerry after drinking two cups of strong coffee. You may want to take medication for motion sickness before watching this clip.

Exercise Achievements

Last week at meeting one of the topics was the practice of storyboarding to reach an activity goal. My end goal is to exercise 4-5 times per week, but I have only been active an average of one day per week. In order to achieve this goal, I decided one of the steps I needed to take was to break it into smaller goals, starting with stepping up my average to 2x/wk. Other steps I believe to be important are scheduling, tracking, blogging, keeping it fun, and rewarding myself.

So here I am...

This week I have:

Used my Biggest Loser Bootcamp DVD- I finally did the weeks 1-2 workout all the way through

Walked with my boyfriend