I have been feeling off lately and it's showing on the scale. Last week I gained 1/2 of a pound. I was very active the week before (for me). I had exercised for 20 minutes, 3 different times. Last week that number fell to 2 times and this week I have yet to break a sweat. I think about exercising, but I don't.
It's hard to describe how I feel. I just want to sleep all the time, but of course I cant. It's hard to find joy in the every day. I hate my job and the fact that 47% of my income goes to student loans. I'm in a hole and it feels like I'm too deep to dig myself out.
Even though I don't have a bed and can't afford groceries, some would say at least I have my health. Right now that's just not enough.
I need something good to happen. I really, really need it. Unfortunately, everything good that's happened I've had to work very hard for, so I'm hoping something good will happen that doesn't take any effort from me because I'm fed up with treading water.
I almost prayed today