Wednesday, September 2, 2009

A Little Down

I have been feeling off lately and it's showing on the scale. Last week I gained 1/2 of a pound. I was very active the week before (for me). I had exercised for 20 minutes, 3 different times. Last week that number fell to 2 times and this week I have yet to break a sweat. I think about exercising, but I don't.

It's hard to describe how I feel. I just want to sleep all the time, but of course I cant. It's hard to find joy in the every day. I hate my job and the fact that 47% of my income goes to student loans. I'm in a hole and it feels like I'm too deep to dig myself out.

Even though I don't have a bed and can't afford groceries, some would say at least I have my health. Right now that's just not enough.

I need something good to happen. I really, really need it. Unfortunately, everything good that's happened I've had to work very hard for, so I'm hoping something good will happen that doesn't take any effort from me because I'm fed up with treading water.

I almost prayed today

1 comment:

Weight Watchers Chic said...

Everything seems to suck right now- huh? Well this is when I was always told I was building character... not sure about that but I promise you things will improve. When things seem most bleak and you are at the darkest moment is usually right before the sun befins to rise!
You sound depressed and I think if you make yourself exercise at least 4 or 5 times each day this week you will begin to feel better.
Can you do a consolidation on your student loans. Call them, I know one time years ago when I needed help with that I was able to get a 6 month period where I didn't have to make a payment, but the intrest accrues, so it's not always the best answer but it maight give you time to get rid of some other bills? I hope you cheer up and don't be so hard on yourself... and although it might be difficult tofind new employment right now, I would make sure I was making that my first priority!!! Good Luck!!!