Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
~ James Joyce (Irish novelist)
Yesterday is in the past. Without yesterday's blunder I wouldn't know what I needed to do to change tomorrow. It's apparent that it's very important for me maintain a routine. When I was in routine I was doing very well. Then, for a few days I stopped blogging, I stopped counting calories, and I still wasn't exercising.
Right now I am behind on my goal. Friday is supposed to be my 3rd weigh in and I have only lost 6.5 pounds as opposed to the full 7 I should have lost by last Friday.
This is my plan today. If I don't do this, I really wish someone could kick me in the ass. Right now I am going to get off of this couch. Then I will make myself 2 eggs which I will eat with an orange and a cup of tea. Immediately following, I will get ready for the gym where I will stay for no less than 2 hours.
Monday, December 15, 2008
I don't plan on this happening again. My eating just got out of control and then I got to a point where I knew what I was doing and how it was going to end, but I didn't stop it.
Friday, December 5, 2008
What she says about starvation mode is one of the reasons why I gained 130 pounds in 10 years. My eating disorders messed up my metabolism and made my body think it was only a matter of time before another starvation period would come.
The first week of this new lifestyle has gone well, but I have one major worry. Am I eating enough? The first couple of days I was never hungry, but that hasn't been true of these last few days. My caloric intake seems a little high for a diet at times. Some days I ate closer to 1600 calories. Hopefully cutting out wheat, caffeine, and refined sugars will help will help.
I pretty much know what I should be eating from all those dietitian sessions my mom paid for when I was anorexic/bulimic, but I have not yet come across an article that has been able to explain to me how much I should be eating. I came across one site that asked me for my body fat percentage and then told me I needed to only eat 1,000 calories a day. I wrote that site off immediately because there is no way that a 1,000 cal/day diet would ever work in the long run.
Starting weight: 201.4
Current weight: 198
Initial Goal weight: 160
I really like that this week I could still basically eat whatever I wanted. I didn't eat leftover pie every day or go out to eat and have pasta with cream sauce, but I could still go to restaurants like a normal person. I went to Pizza Hut and Olive Garden!
A few things I want to work on next week:
- Cutting out wheat
- Eating a little more protein
- Cutting back on the caffeine
- I want to eat closer to eating 1400 calories- this week some days were pretty close to 1600. My hope is that cutting back on caffeine will help me not feel so hungry. If I am still hungry, I think I might have to stay at 1600 because I don't want my body to go into starvation mode.