Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
This Thanksgiving I am going to:
Friday, November 20, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I plan to continue on with the Weight Watchers plan and my goal is to be more active. Specifically, I would like to exercise for 15 minutes a day, 3 days a week. Believe it or not, that is more than my current level of activity. Once I achieve that, I would like to move to 20 minutes/3days. Then 20 minutes 5 days, in small steps, until I am exercising at least 30 minutes a day, 5-6 days a week.
I've even been having exercise dreams lately. Mostly I have dreams of running and they are completely unrealistic visions of me running effortlessly. So, this morning I went running because the sun was shining and I thought it would be a nice way to pass some time. I jogged for a grand total of 10 minutes (maybe even less) and thought my lungs were going to explode. I definitely need to do this in stages! For having lost all this weight, I'm honestly not all that fit, and in order to be successful long term I really should be.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Honestly, now that I'm close to my goal weight, I feel that I would be more comfortable in the 125-130 range. For the past few weeks I've been tempted not to share that with my loved ones and friends because I've been getting a lot of comments on how I'm getting so thin, maybe too thin. I don't see it and I also don't believe body image distortion is to blame. I posted on a Weight Watchers message board about this and the general concensus was that people who are overweight or have many overweight friends or family tend to be the first ones who will judge someone in a HEALTHY weight range as too thin. Ultimately, this is my choice.
I will get to 135 as my goal for Weight Watchers, but then it is my personal goal to become more fit and active through exercise as I have been inconsistent about including extra activity in my day. I will continue to follow the maintenance program of WW, but will also monitor my hunger levels and avoid overeating. If while living an active lifestyle, my weight continues to drop to the 125-130 range, then it will be because that is what I am meant to weigh at my healthiest. I don't think I should be chastised by my loved ones for wanting to be as healthy as I can be.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
1. Clip coupons!
a. I will ONLY buy a Sunday paper if the VALUE of HEALTHY food coupons exceeds the cost of the paper. If the paper contains many eligible coupons, I will buy more than one. I also buy other Sunday papers using the same guidelines to get the best deals. In my town, I have to get to the grocery store customer service counter at 8am on the dot, Sunday morning, in order to get the oh-so-coveted newspaper The Record.
b. Clip online. I do use Coupon.com, but I prefer Afullcup.com where I can search for printable coupons for the brands I want.
2. Watch Sales
a. Scan supermarket flyers and make your grocery list using them as a baseline. If the sales (and/or paper coupons) are crappy that week, I will only buy enough to get me by.
b. Combine supermarket sales with coupons. I search afullcup.com for items I know are on sale.
c. Buy seasonal fruits and veggies. Visit farmstands. Freezing berries bought buy one get one free with the freezer bags you only ended up paying 25 cents a box for ends up being much cheaper than hitting up the frozen fruit section.
3. Don't go hungry! I carry almonds in my purse for such occasions.
4. Measure your portions! This has saved me an amazing amount of money. I bought Jennie-O Turkey Ham buy one get one free, froze one and I've been using the other for countless meals. I like to measure my food in grams because I tend to be more liberal when going by cups, chips, slices, et cetera. When you're not eating more than you need to, it just follows that your food will last you much longer.
5. Don't buy more than you need. Try to plan at least a few meals. Know what you'll be eating. I hate throwing food away and it can be quite tempting to eat more than you might have planned because you don't want to see something go bad. This happened to me a lot with lettuce. I'm not big on salads, but I know I should eat them, so I used to always buy lettuce at the grocery store and every week I'd be tossing it in the garbage can. Now I either plan it into a meal (although I might change my mind) or I don't buy it.
6. Get creative! Try new recipes using food in your fridge and cabinets. I like allrecipes.com because it allows you to search for a recipe using ingredients you have on hand and you can always health-ify them.
7. Eating out! Although I can't remember the last time I paid for a breakfast, lunch or dinner out (sorry honey), I try to help save us some money by using coupons from newspapers, mailings, or the phonebook.
I'm sure there are others that I'm either not aware of or don't put into practice. Share your tips if you like :). I was inspired to do this when cooking dinner tonight. YUMMmmm. A deliciously cheap, 300 calorie black bean quesadilla.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Sometimes I just snap. Lately, I feel as if I've been slipping back into my old maladaptive eating habits. Though it's on a much smaller scale, I'm still concerned. I've been over-snacking and mini-bingeing. Chips and salsa, hummus and pita chips, ice cream, and popcorn are all examples of foods that can throw me over the edge if I'm not careful. I have to be very mindful when consuming these things because I am....a snackaholic. In front of others, I am generally able to show some restraint, but when alone the portions are more likely to spiral out of control.
Tonight I was able to stop myself from a full out binge. I got home knowing I had 2 points left for the night. I was planning on using them for a single severing bag of pizza flavored pretzels, but then I noticed not 1, not 2, but THREE!!! containers of frosted spice cake rounds on the breakfast nook table. I say rounds because they were the thickness of a cookie and texture of cake, but that doesn't matter; all you need to know is that they were delicious and disarming creations of a butter-crazed demon (my mother). And so it went that I consumed the pretzels, the spice cake, a serving of deli turkey, and 5 wheat thin flatbreads with WW cream cheese. I almost ate more. I wanted the left over orzo, ice cream, cottage cheese, and peaches. After stopping to assess my hunger level, I knew I had to stop. I didn't want to, but I was able to overcome my urges.
I haven't really shared this before. I feel a lot of shame around not being able to control my eating. It feels really good when I can say that I ate exactly what I should have for the day and not a morsel more, but I'm just not perfect. I can't always trust myself with food and that is why I'm learning how to deal with that reality. In the past people have tried to help me with my portions by questioning my habits which only increases my shame and feelings of being out of control.
The past couple of weeks it has been my goal to curb my snacking. I wrote down a bunch of activities that make me feel in control and positive on little slips of paper. Each time I feel like snacking when I'm not hungry, I want to pick an activity out of the jar that will make me feel better than the food does.
I want to be successful in the long-term this time. I will be successful. I can change this.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Weight Watchers is donating $1 ($25,000 max) to Share Our Strength and Action Against Hunger for every mention of the Lose for Good Campaign on blogs, facebook, Twitter, and MySpace.
Help me spread the word!
What's your goal for the duration of the Lose For Good Campaign? I hope to lose an average of 1 pound per week and earn 5o AP by October 17th.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Is anyone else excited for The Biggest Loser to start again tomorrow night?!!
Tomorrow I have a manager's meeting I have to go to for an hour. I've decided to bike to and from.
My apologies for the truncated post, but I have some things to attend to.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
It's hard to describe how I feel. I just want to sleep all the time, but of course I cant. It's hard to find joy in the every day. I hate my job and the fact that 47% of my income goes to student loans. I'm in a hole and it feels like I'm too deep to dig myself out.
Even though I don't have a bed and can't afford groceries, some would say at least I have my health. Right now that's just not enough.
I need something good to happen. I really, really need it. Unfortunately, everything good that's happened I've had to work very hard for, so I'm hoping something good will happen that doesn't take any effort from me because I'm fed up with treading water.
I almost prayed today
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
On Monday morning 2 new crea were born on our Alpaca farm. Whether or not they are twins, we are unsure of, but that would be very rare. What's more likely? 2 crea born on the same day with different mothers, or an opposite sex pair of twins with one nursing off of another pregnant alpaca?
Monday, August 24, 2009
I am getting so close to my goal weight that I can almost taste it! 9 months ago I never would have imagined I'd weigh under 180 pounds. Apparently, at that time, I didn't know how serious I really was about getting healthy. Today I weighed in at 143! I'm down 2.4 from last week and 13 pounds away from goal. This last week I worked out 3 times for 20 minutes. This week my goal is to maintain that level of activity or increase it. I started off this morning with a workout, so I already have one session under my belt.
On the other side of things:
I'm getting a little nervous. I've gotten extremely good at losing weight in a healthy way, but pretty soon I'm going to have to maintain the weight loss, That's a scary thought! It doesn't matter if you have to lose 20 pounds, 60, or 200 because we all go through the same trials to lose each pound; the real challenge is maintenance.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Here are some songs that keep me going:
Monday, August 17, 2009
Approximately 15 pounds til goal weight. The high end of my reccommended weight is 137 and I picked 130, which is somewhere in the middle. As I get closer to goal, I'll see how I feel in my body and maybe I will decide I want to be heavier. People have been assuming I am very close to my goal and are wondering if I will look too thin 15 pounds lighter. One lady at my WW meeting tonight joked that if I lost any more weight I'd have to put weights on my ancles. I am fairly lean and muscular already, maybe I should revise my goal???
On TV and on her website, she preaches about going the all natural and organic route. Wouldn't one think that the most natural way to lose weight is to eat well and exercise? The eye-popping ad I stumbled upon today states, "We all know that if you want to lose weight, you need to reduce your caloric intake. It sounds simple, but the truth is, if it were that easy, most of us wouldn't be overweight in the first place." Upon reading this, I became enraged. I just bought once of her DVD's! I wouldn't have purchased it had I known she endorses quick fixes for weight-loss. Sure, I will grant that eating well is NOT easy for many of us, and obviously it is a problem for those of us who have been or are overweight, but that doesn't mean we have to be the victim of food. We can take control.
Before I made the conscious decision to join Weight Watchers and take control of my health I believed that I didn't have the willpower I once had. I felt powerless. At one point I had the thought that even if I wanted to "become" anorexic again (a ludicrous thought in itself), I wouldn't have the will to stick it out. I also had fallen into the habit of blaming a sluggish metabolism. That was only a crutch. On this journey I have discovered how easy it is rev up your metabolism; all it takes is hard work, but once you get going it is, inways, a little easier.
I am very upset that this woman I looked up to has compromised her integrity by putting her name on this type of product. It contradicts many things she has said in her career...things that have inspired hundreds of thousands of people to deal with their baggage, drop their excuses, and take things into their own, capable hands.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Saturday, August 15, 2009
I worked through the pain for 9 hours on concrete. I just got out of work @ 1:30am and it's now getting close to 3. Off to bed so that I can be active tomorrow before work.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Of course I could leave the mall without chatting up a couple of the cell phone kiosk guys; talking about the new cellular technologies and which phones we liked best, but I finally did leave. Would you call that activity? I have some sores on my feet that would suggest it.
This morning I made the mistake of eating a pathetic breakfast. All I had was a WW yogurt. I was going to have some corn bran, but apparently I forgot when I was busy writing out interview questions. When I got home from the mall I was starving! I made a quick 3 POINT sandwich to take the edge off, but I had to eat again almost immediately. I had some haddock, brown rice, and zucchini; leftovers from a couple of days ago. I still have a dull headache from letting my blood sugar get so low, but my appetite is still not suppressed with 13 points left for the day. I close for the next two nights, so tonight I will be staying up late tonight in preparation and I want to make sure I switch over to a closing eating schedule. That is, breakfast at 11 (or when I wake up), lunch right before work at 3, and dinner whenever business slows enough for me to eat. I loathe my constantly changing schedule!
I think I might still pop in the Shred DVD. Hmmm...
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Monday, August 10, 2009
This week I slacked off and the scale reflected the lack of effort. This week I will plan in exercise. I was very successful the last time I did that. The meeting will be starting soon. I will get back to this later.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Today is one of two days off in a row, so I decided to hit a local gym. I can't afford a gym membership right now, but I hope to be able to get one after I reach lifetime with Weight Watchers and no longer have to pay $40/mo.
- I am an assistant manager at McDonald's
- I work 45 hour weeks
- Sometimes I only have 8 hour shifts between shifts (it's nothing for me to work 4-1am, followed by 10am-7pm, then 4am-1pm)
- I do not have set days off
- Sometimes I work up to 8 days in a row
- When I do have more than 12 hours between shifts, I like to spend it with loved ones because I don't get to see them when my work schedule is stacked
- When I get out of work I am exhausted (I wore a pedometer and I walk up to 14000 steps in a 9 hour shift)
- I only get 1, 20-minute break because I am salaried
Monday, June 29, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
In the end, it was worth it because I realized that I can do push-ups now. I don't think I've ever been able to do more than 2 in a row.
I've exercised every other day this week and I'm really amped about it. This is the most active I've been in years and it feels so good! I'm more energized throughout my day and it's been easier to get out of bed in the morning, so it seems that my quality of sleep has improved. I feel like I'm finally getting on the exercise train. Even just from a few days of activity I am seeing physical and physiological changes. I am liking this :)
This picture does not pick up on the colors in this dish at all. It was much more colorful in real life. I found a similar recipe in a Biggest Loser-themed Prevention magazine extra, but I changed some things. This is how I made it:
1 large portobello mushroom cap
1/4 c. pizza sauce
1/4 c. nonfat mozzarella
1 clove chopped garlic
1 T chopped red onion
1/2 chopped tomatillo
1/2 link lean Italian turkey sausage (cooked, drained, and crumbled)
1/4 tsp red pepper flakes
1 tsp cilantro
Cook sausage over medium heat. Add red pepper, tomatillo, cilantro, onions, and garlic. Cook until onions are transluscent and garlic is golden brown. Preheat oven to 350. Rinse and wipe mushroom clean of dirt. Place on baking sheet, stem side up. Spoon sauce over cap. Sprinkle with cheese and sausage mix. Cook 6 to 8 minutes.
Servings: 1 per serving: 162 calories, 5 g fat, 3 g fiber
POINTS VALUE: 3
I really liked the idea of using a portobello instead of the bread and it tasted delicious. You could do a meatless version for 70 less calories that would only have 1 gram of fat. I added the red pepper and cilantro to suit my tastes. I love spicy food! I bet a "Greek Pizza" version would be very good as well.
There's something about eating at a table that just makes dinner more satisfying whether you're eating your mothers best dish or a low cal spread. I don't often make it to the dinner table, but when I do it's a pleasant experience; I eat more slowly and enjoy the various flavors in my meal. One thing that I never do, even if I'm busy, is eat a TV dinner straight out of the container. Plate it! Plate it! Plate it! Add some more veggies and fill that plate right up. When I am in a hurry to eat and don't have time to cook, I like to take a SmartOnes lasagna florentine or similar dish and plate it with french cut green beans and a serving of FiberOne cottage cheese.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
In the end I remembered that I had blogged about it before I went to bed and promised I would ride my bike. Also, it's supposed to rain every day for the next week just about, so I might as well take advantage of the weather because who knows when I'll have another opportunity to do this.
I feel that I really accomplished something today :)
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I remembered all the times they ran stadium stairs on the BL and decided I could do it too. I went up and down these bad boys 5 times, then I did tricep dips off the play set and squats by the benches. I turned my lame 10 minute workout into a 30 minute sweatfest and I feel fantastic! I'm proud of myself right now.
Monday, June 8, 2009
Monday, June 1, 2009
can now get back to the program. I have a few big milestones and goals I want to reach, so it's time to pick up the slack.
This week I really missed having meeting. It seems that the accountability and support I get from meetings makes a big difference for me.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
One of the things that has made this journey so much easier and SUCCESSFUL is that I have some amazing people who love and support me. My friends are the few and the proud; a hand-picked crew of some of the most beautiful souls. My life is completely empty of people who bring me down or want to keep me down. In the past, those negative people have been men, but right now I have the most supportive man I've ever met in my life. He counts points right along with me even though he doesn't need to lose weight. He goes on walks with me. This guy is in my corner.
A couple of weeks ago I told him on a particular day that I wanted to make sure I took a walk. Our day was busy and it wasn't until later that I remembered that I needed to get some exercise. I looked outside and it seemed it might rain soon, so I told him we should probably cancel the walk, to which he replied something to the effect of, "Ok weather woman, what's your excuse going to be next time". He then continued to tell me if we went for a walk that moment, we'd probably miss the rain. I exercised that day because of him. He was able to hold me accountable without pissing me off. This is something others have had a hard time with. You can ask just about anyone who knows me...
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
This week has been a bit rough, I've used most of my flex points when normally I use none to 5 of them. My weight seems to be holding steady and I fear I am going to pay at the scale for not earning any activity points. Today I am doing ok, but the two days before that I was feeling hungry all the time. It didn't seem like emotional hunger, so I figured I would give my body what it was asking for. Right now I am regretting it. As of now I am 0.6 pounds away from having lost 20% of my body weight and I don't think I am going to make it by Monday night. I'm trying to focus on the positive, but I'm a little disappointed in myself for my lack of focus and exercise this week.
On the up-side, I bought a pair of size 8 jeans, I am hoping to fit into them by the end of the summer if not sooner!
Thursday, April 30, 2009
I have not started my contest subsmission yet. I've been spending the last couple of days re-organizing my life. I knew that things were hectic when I was with my ex and constantly travelling to see him, but my goodness! Finally, after two days things are clean and everything is in line, so that I can actually put new things on my to-do list.
My snacking goal is not going so well this week and my exercise is still average for me (1-2 days per week). Yesterday I indulged on two differen't WW treats for a total of 4 out of my 27 daily points. I am just trying to eat more responsibly and while the WW ice creams and candies are better than most calorie-wise, they are still not the best choice for the body. So...no more of those for the rest of the week.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
The past few days have been a roller coaster for me, having gone through a break-up. Ending a relationship with someone is never easy and never feels good, especially if you have developed an attachment, but life goes on and mine will be great. Tonight I spoke to one of my dearest friends for quite a long time. He is me, only a few years older with a penis and all the accoutrement's. He was able to bring some clarity to my mind and shake me back to my center. So here I am... I am back and grounded as ever.
I deleted a couple of unescessary posts from the last few days that were filled with emotional turmoil. It's not that I am ashamed of it because everybody goes through stuff and responds differently, but my initial responses are always more exaggerated compared to how I feel when my mind has had a day or two to adapt to change. To those of you who may have read those, I am doing ok, and I regret that you saw that side of me because it's not an accurate depiction of me as a whole.
Goals for this next week:
exercise, exercise, exercise! Now that I am not getting any sex, I will have to kick up my activity level quite a bit. LOL. No, but really... No matter what happens in my life I need to keep routine and stay active. Exercise will be a great way to help kick the pain and stress of a break-up while keeping me on track with my health goals.
Hit the 40lb and 20% mark by Monday, May 1st. -No problem.
Start my essay submission for the Weight Watchers Inspiring Stories of the Year Contest!
Eat less snacks and empty calories.
Move on...because I'm worth it.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
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Before reading this article, I was avoiding hydrogenated oils and trans fats because my old health-nut supervisor told me to. Then last week my inquisitive other half asked me why they were so bad and I was semi-embarassed to not even know why... but here is this article to answer the question some of you may have also been asking.
Why are hydrogenated oils so bad for you?
I never thought that I would be over 200... but it happened. I was disgusted with myself, but felt that I would never get down to where I should medically be. I had pretty much given up on myself. It didn't help that people would say that I was beautiful and that some people are just mean to be bigger. Eventually, though, I got sick of people telling me how well I wore my weight.
There are three different body types. I am a mesomorph. I have an hourglass figure and tend to gain and lose proportionately. You might have noticed from my last posting that I have lost just about the same amount (2") off of every part of my body except for my calves. My calves were already very lean. This does not change the fact that I am obese (but very close to entering the overweight BMI zone)! That's still a lot of weight that I was carrying around. Since starting this blog I have lost almost 50 pounds. I used to groan like an old lady when getting up. I still do, but now it's only out of habit, not out of strain. I had difficulty breathing sometimes, even if I was being sedentary. Every movement felt like work. I had no energy. I was only 22 and I FELT 32.
Having now lost 15% of my weight and sneaking up on 20%... I feel amazing. I am already reaping the benefits of my new healthy lifestyle and I can't wait to experience the others that await me. These are supposed to be the best years of my life. Albeit I wasted one of them on a loser, but now I have healed and am on my way to being a healthy, athletic 20-something.
By the way... my mom pointed out tonight that I am almost HALFWAY to my goal.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Thursday, April 2, 2009
I have felt myself slipping this week. I hadn't exercised. Yesterday I went over my points and didn't even count how many I went over them by. I helped myself to 2 (sherbet and Sprite smoothies) and no, it wasn't Sprite 0). I didn't measure at all. It was a simple sugar binge. Today was my day off and I found myself sitting on the couch, watching TV and eating mindlessly. Again, I had 2 servings of sorbet. The difference is that I measured and counted points, but looking at my food journal today, you can see at a glance that a majority of my calories came from carbs (most of them simple).
I was feeling guilty and very disappointed at my lack of self control. It was a beautiful day out and here I was being a couch potato. Fortunately, I was flipping through the channels and stumbled upon a re-run of the Biggest Loser. The episode was about the first day the trainers met the contestants. I watched a group of severely overweight individuals race one mile through the desert to be guaranteed a spot on one of the two teams. If they can do it, why was I not outside running?
That was enough to get me off of the couch and out I went. It was kind of embarassing to me...to be out there in my exercise outfit, visible to anyone driving by. I hoped they were not picking on me. I actually tried to convince myself that they were proud of me for running. I mean, all those slender people you see jogging might not have always been slender. You have to start somewhere. I ended up jogging/walking for about 2 miles. I took a small break to do housework and then I ended up working out with my new Biggest Loser Bootcamp DVD. Wow. Today did not end up being a lazy day. I am exhausted!
Monday, March 30, 2009
I have now been on the WW program for 3 months, so I decided to measure myself this evening to chart my progress. Now that I am in the exercise groove, I'm confident that the inches will keep falling off.
|Week 6||Week 12|
|Calves||15 1/2"||15 1/2"|